Bed Well Rested

I think bed rest has a whole new meaning to me. I used to secretly think that laying in bed all day sounded delightful. Being able to nap as you pleased and catch up on the many shows and movies I was behind on. Well that lasted about two days before I was about to lose it. Every morning that my two boys left me I'd sit and cry. I felt horrible that I couldn't take care of them myself. I felt horrible that they were not sad to leave me. I felt horrible that I was sometimes happy they were gone. I was a ball of emotion. My doctor told me I had to be laying down the majority of my time. I couldn't and still am not aloud to lift anything heavier than Owen. It hasn't been easy. We truly are so blessed to have the family and friends that we do. So many people willing to help us out with the boys and brought us so many delicious dinners! I am finally to the point where I am feeling semi normal. I still have some pain but it isn't anywhere near the pain I was in. This prolapsed uterus is for the birds! My doctor has told me that it may take up to a year for everything to be normal again and eventually down the road I will need a hysterectomy. The good news is I can still have kids if we choose to do so. He said that if we do choose to that we need to have the baby sooner rather than later. Meaning that we need to start trying when Owen is a year old. Yikes! I guess we will cross that road when it gets here! This has been a crazy time in our life but also a blessing in many ways. We have grown and leaned a lot. We have become closer as a family. Thank you to all those who have helped and prayed for us. We have felt your prayers and love. We are blessed.